Sunday, May 14, 2006
i dont like talking about myself in the past..i didnt like talking about my family, my life. but now i just realised that my blog is full of my family..all i think of is my family..some people say lover will not last as long as friends do..but i have a second to it..family last even longer than friends do..
what was i afraid of telling people about my family??..thinking back..maybe cause i dont relaly know my family well enough to talk about them..or i'm i hiding...dont like talking about it..because all the while i thought my family wasnt a 'full house' family..my mum was never close to me...my dad worse..my siblings..all doing their own stuff..
watching ''I am not stupid 2'' made my cry like no end..like in the movie..how we communicate..by leaving slips of paper on the dining table..all i ask if for my allowance..or test paper to be signed..until when i am old enough..i dont even bother asking her to sign my test paper..i will just forged..why bother?? when my mum screams at me, telling me to forge it anyway..
my dad...i dont even bother to look at him..i hated him to wake up in the afternoon..sometimes i even wish he doesnt wake up..so that i dont have to hear his voice..his voice irritates me so much..at night when my dad comes back..its like..what the f..he's back..he is going to ask me dumb questions.. my dad seldom ask me to do stuff..all he wants to is to chat with me..ask me how is everything? eventhought i know that he wants to create conversation, but i hated it..i hate to talk to my parents..
my mum..we always end up in a fight after a nice conversation. she always thinks that she is right..she doesnt joke..she doesnt understand what i am telling her...all she knows is to give us money to shut our mouth up.. my dad..he doesnt have a chance to talk to us..when he is down, we go up...when he up, we go to our rooms..
in school, my friends will call up their home to inform them that they will not be coming back for lunch/dinner, or will be late..us..we dont have to..cause nobody picks up the phone..i never had the habit of informing anyone about my whereabouts..nobody cares..
why people like australia?
they reply..i like the freedom.
i like the independence.
i like being away from my family, and trying out living alone.
me?
it doesnt make a different be it in sg or in au. does it?
I WROTE AT 19:21
